Fuck you right back...

I am so tired of his bullshit drama. I wish he would just leave me alone. I wish he would pretend I just dropped off the face of the planet. We've been over with for a while now and yet he still makes  me stressed, annoyed, depressed, and it just seems everything is collapsing.

I guess its true when they say when it rains it pours. It started Friday when he decided to come to my house, then again on Saturday, then he insists on trying to get a hold of me today. Then on top of all the ex drama my internet died and that means my phone went to. Been arguing with my mother over petty crap. I wanna curl up in a corner, away from everyone, and just cry. Something I don't do often.

And I hate the fact that when I get into these funks I push everyone away. I do things on purpose to make them not wanna be near me. No matter how much I want someone around, I just feel like I MUST push them away. It's the "i must be independent" thing. I guess. Why bring people into my problems when I can barely deal with them? Just work on them along, suppress most of the emotions down deep until eventually I get an ulcer or some form of tumor.


-sighs-

I think I may just go curl on my couch with my blanket and try my best not to have a breakdown.